Turning Point

The Witch says:

A friend once told me that you'd know a "turning point" in your life when you categorized events as coming before or after that moment or person. How true. Looking back, my stories are often preluded by the significant appearance or disappearance in my life.

I have one big turning point in my adult life. One point where one person appeared (and eventually disappeared) at the same time another person disappeared. And I owe everything of who I am to that turning point cos at the same time I went on overdrive and made a 180 degree turn-around.

I might have lost something back then. And I still feel the sadness whenever I'd remember what I was able to leave behind. It's hard saying goodbye to good memories after all, especially when the memory reaches way back through my childhood. It's like losing my innocence and finding out what a scary and exciting world awaits. I guess, in the end, I appreciate that the more. I don't see what I lost, rather I see what I gained when I lost my turning point.

The Lady says:

It was like a light bulb lighting up when I got this idea for the blog! And now I'm kind of regretting that I thought it up because this will sound so self-centered! Who is my turning point? I am my turning point.

There have been people I've encountered that has influenced me in one way or the other but never has there been anyone that has been made such an impact that for a while I was lost from my world and into that person. There has been deaths, births, marriages, and migration in the family but not one of them has created that impact that changed my life. But there has always been me. I have been experiencing and living all of these and more. I have enjoyed and I have hated. BUT I think my turning point was tha time in my life I realized my Life wasn't perfect.

My turning point was when I decided to grow up. Bitter-sweet...

The Bitch Says:

Turning point. hmm.. this is a little easy. My turning point would have to be the time i decided not to take so much crap from other people and start standing up for myself. i was one of those "mousy" people back in high school. and for some reason it stuck. they'd just tease me like crazy, id go home crying because of some nasty joke or some girl who just got all my friends mad at me for no reason..(rumors and all).. heck i was in high school. i didnt know any better. i was the new kid. i couldnt do anything because these people had known each other since forever. Come college, shoot, nobody knew anybody... except for some.. but in the long run, everybody was "new" shoot, i decided iwouldnt be the same withdrawn person i was way back when.. became more outspoken, wasnt afraid to say what was honest to me, heck if they couldnt handle it, i wouldnt even care. not that i became a mean bitch or anything.. oh no, wait, i did,, hihi~ in a way, my subconscious thought up a way to get back at the bullies. nobody deserved to be bullied. id have to say though that i was pretty happy that i have the bitch in me to defend myself. it was better than nothing.. definitely better than nothing..

New Design

The Witch says:

Nothing really big. It's just that the Bitch, the Lady and I met up for an impromptu coffee this morning and we went through several photos and decided we should change the blog design. We went through hundreds of pictures and decided this is perfect. We all agreed to use him *points at picture above* for being such an eye-candy.

The Lady says:

I concur! An eye-candy definitely. I only wish he's real. :)

The Bitch says:

Is THAT him!? hihihi~ he looks good enough to eat.. yum! gad, can we have him in our SIMs world? gardener? pool cleaner? cabana boy? hmm.. personal trainer.. i can think of a whole lot of other stuff i want him to be ...

tsk tsk.. beautifull aint he...

Breakfast Interlude

The Witch says:

Since the Bitch has been having tens and thousands of backlogs, I decided to just blog about our day. Y'see, I was supposed to have a training this morning thus, instead of coming in last night, I just went to work early morning. I ended up canceling that so called training and instead I had breakfast with the Bitch and the Lady at QC Sports Club (I almost got lost! I swear, one of these days I'd totally get lost and no one would be able to find me).

It's another first I guess, usually we'd have breakfast together AFTER all our shifts. It's fun having the same shifts as your friends. I promised the Lady that I'd bring the laptop over next time I drop by so we could blog together at Bux while waiting for the Bitch (she leaves last compared to me and the Lady). I also told 'em I wanted to install Sim2 and we could play as ourselves! Ain't that fun? Hahahaha~ Cos there we could finally make our dreams come true. The Witch being married to a rich, handsome guy who'd build her a mansion. The Lady living with the Witch cos she'd provide her with her own "wing" inside the house and she could use all her things and ride all her cars. And the Bitch sleeping over once in a while when she ain't too busy with her throng of men (she specifically requested not to create a BF for her on the Sims).

If only we could really live that life. Then maybe I can finally afford to have breakfast with them daily. BTW, it's the Lady's birthday next month. The Bitch and I have been thinking of a really exciting gift...though she insisted on getting something boring instead. Lemme think...

The Bitch Says:

I'm going to do this while the going is good. hihihi~ I am so totally proud of the Witch for making it to QCSC without getting lost.. i hate the fact that i get out of shift 4 hours after you guys do.. but i know you don't mind waiting, so im ok with that. and i can pretty much leave anytime i want to so it should still be good.

I'm so totally excited about our Sims world. i want to live in your mansion. a room for me will do. doesn't have to be an entire wing. but i want a walk in closet for my shoes, a walk in closet for my clothes, and a walk in closet for my bags. im thinking a pet, and oodles and oodles of hot guys. no beefy.. hihihihi~ heck, if im going to create my own world, might as well make it the way i want it right?

i'm still thinking of going for the "creative" gift for the Lady. every Lady needs a "creative" gift. whatever it may turn out to be.. lots and lots and lots of unmentionables to choose from!! aint that so fun!?!?

hihihi~

The Lady Says:

My apologies to the Witch and the Bitch for the lateness of my contribution. This week I've been feeling weird! I cannot decide whether it started bad or it started good. And I have a lot of things to say but I can't seem to channel it into something comprehensible, thus, the backlogs.

Now going back to that interesting day... I think the decision to have breakfast started way before my shift started. It started with Napoli's Oil and Garlic Seafood pasta! Ever since I tasted it, I seem to be always craving for it and since I cannot have it, I just end hungry and wanting to eat anything! And it's not doing my figure any favor. Huhu~ But I have to say, if I'm to lose my figure, losing it over breakfast with friends is the best way to do it!

Breakfast with friends are never ordinary! Especially if those friends are the Witch and the Bitch. Topics could range from the Witch's dream mansion with my own "wing", planning on playing SIMS to that "creative" gift for my birthday! Imagine us talking about the Witch's mansion's "wing" for me wherein the library willl be found, with me as the librarian, and clothes, shoes, and accesories as my books! Then we shift to playing SIMS on the laptop and creating our dream lives then to their creative gift for me. It's a whirlwind!

When it comes down to it, breakfast interludes are bad for my figure but good for stimulation of my brain neurons! That is, if it survives the shock from the topics and the sudden shifts of the topics. And oh... please boring gifts would be fine because I have heard your idea of creative gifts! :)

I am not my Virginity

The Lady says:

I am my flesh or am I? Take away a limb and do you take away a piece of me? Or did you just take away a distraction and challenged me to take a closer look of who I really am?

Hi, I'm the Lady. I lost my Virginity a long time ago. Does it make me less of a person that I lost it? Am I less intelligent? Am I less stronger because of that?

I never really thought much about it. But the Witch and I were at Bux waiting for someone, when we got to talking about why we decided we lost our virginity early on. So I thought to the time when I lost it. When I lost it, I agonized over it and the Whys of it. Then I realized, that it wasn't that I lost it but that it wasn't really good the First Time!!! (Haha) But then is it really good for anybody for the first time? Anyways, it took me days to realize that as Voltaire (French writer and philosopher) would put it, "It is one of the superstitions of the human mind to have imagined that virginity could be a virtue." And I'm not really into superstition. There were a lot of other issues I had to address that REALLY affected my life so I left that issue behind for someone else to ponder and moved on to important things.

I am educated, intelligent and unafraid! I earn my living instead of stealing it. All that I have on me, I worked hard to have the right to wear them. I look at a person and wait before judging. So why should I put myself in that box labeled "Virginity" and let that be my meter for my value? Why let others? I don't and I never will.

The point is, it's not our virginity that's important. It's losing it on our terms that is important. It's YOU. It's ME that's important. Don't let Virginity distract you from who you are. After all, we're bound to lose it someday. Do we also LOSE when that day comes?

The Witch says:

I've been itching to write this entry since last Saturday when the Lady and I finally touched the subject. I wanted her to go first though since it was her idea to write about it.

You see, I've been hearing a lot of negative things about girls sleeping around. And though I'm not guilty I feel that there are just too many preachy people around me. I'm not saying go lose your virginity as soon as you can or that you should go sleep with anyone who's got a dick attached to them. Fact is, you can never measure my value based on the number of men I've been with or whether I'm a virgin or not.

I recall talking to one Atenista friend last month. I told him about that time when out of the blue an old love (I do think I loved him back then hehe) came back and we ended up in bed. Not a proud moment but I don't find anything wrong with it as well. I'm single, he's single, we had a past. My friend then said something like, "You sleep with him, now you lose value. If I sleep with a girl, then I gain value." I looked at him wide -eyed and told him that if I never expected such a reaction from someone like him and if he indeed mean what he just said then he's a pig for ever thinking that.

I then told the Lady that I decided to lose my virginity early on after so much deliberation. Though I know it's moral/religious and social implications I decided I'd rather lose it than be weighed through the existence of that piece of flesh I am a woman of substance and a person all my own. My values as a person would never be measured by something as fragile as my hymen.

The Bitch Says:

Shoot, i've always believed that if you're going to protest this kind of thing to make sure you're as righteous as you claim. or else, you're nothing but a hypocrite. I have nothing against those who decided to go and free themselves of the bonds of virginity. and i definitely have nothing against those who are willing to wait till marriage. heck that's their choice. i dont think it makes anybody any less. Our decisions define us. whether it be wrong or right. hold on. right and wrong is determined by opinion. what may be right or wrong for one person may not necessarily be so for another. so how do we determine if it is? If you say so. As long as your choices for your life does not mean stepping on other,people, or hurting other people, go on ahead. Why should our being virgins or NOT being vifgins be a gauge of our "self". Freud always related sex as the root of a beings persona. everything has, one way or another, something to do with sex. maybe he has a point. maybe it does make us who we are. i'm definitely not ruling that out.

i agree with the Lady. we're educated people. Why would something like our virginity or the lack of it be something that would even minutely bother us? and why bother about it? in the long run its just a piece of flesh.. that you cant even see.. would ultimately be just a piece of skin. and nothing else.

The art of FliRtiNg...

The Bitch Says:

We've always enjoyed our ability to flirt our way through anything and everything.. To a point, we've used everything from a flirty smile to openly going up to a person and ask for a name or number. We've enjoyed the triumphs, sulked through rejection, and ranted on the defeats (damned). but to what extent..? How long will this ability last? How long before we get sick of the freebies? discounts? getting whatever we want with a wave of our hand, a simple text message, or a smile... will we actually ever get sick of it? will we get tired of being treated like a princess? and simply because we have the "hoTneSs" in us?

~i dont think so~ :)

The Witch says:

To be honest, I never saw myself as a flirt. I even cried when someone told me I was a few years back. It seems so negative to me back then. I guess maturity and experience changes one's perspective as I totally understand now how people can brand me as such and why it's not such a negative thing anymore. I don't mind being called a flirt now, because I am.

I've tons of male friends. More than the number of girl friends that I have. Not because I'm a flirt but simply because it's way easier to keep relationships with males as they're not too emotionally draining, not maarte or demanding. A lot of people mistook that as me being a flirt. C'mon! I'm just spending time with them having "dude" time, how can that be classified as flirting? Seriously.

I've this thing about being able to start conversations at the most unlikely situations and people. One time I visited a friend at work and we went to have coffee at the local Starbucks there. I came there for 2 consecutive nights. The first night I started joking with the Baristas. the second night they were all smiles when they saw me, asking if I'm gonna have the same order and they of course remembered my name. ny friend then told me, "kaya ka napagsasabihan na flirt e." And I was thiking, I'm just being friendly and if they think that's flirting then so be it.

Now that's the unconscious way of flirting. If we go to the real thing that'll be an entirely different story. I've flirted a lot of times consciously. Most of the time I'd get the reaction that I want, be it the admiration or the utter awe that I receive when I start dripping with female pheromones. The Bitch is right though, it could get old. What's next then? As I would always say, Flirting is an art that results to Seduction.

The Lady says:

I never really was very proficient with the art of flirting. You might say, I'm a reactive flirt. I never go out of my way to flirt with anyone because the results are usually disastrous. I usually just drop a hint like a hanky dropped on purpose and then it's up to you how I will react. Boring? I know but I feel the the cost always outweighs the benefits. I don't really like dealing with flirting gone wrong! It's so EWWW.

I have to say though, when flirting goes right, it definitely is wonderful! It's like enjoying that caramelized strawberry dipped in whipped cream. One can never get enough but one has to be careful not to mess yourself up. Be careful, you might end up with a hell of a mess with the whipped cream!

I know it'll really sound as if I'm contradicting myself with this. But I still agree with the Bitch and the Witch. I don't really think we'd get tired of the art, especially if you do it in moderation. And with just a little adjustment, we can lead it to Seduction! Not that I had first-hand experience on the matter. Just a theory that's all. Hihi~

The Witch says:

I don't think I'd ever get tired of it. It's a built-in mechanism really. Just like the urge to have sex. Also, why stop when you can get spoiled rotten just for being a good flirt. It's just addicting.

So what'll be the next blog be about? Seduction? Weeee~

Shithead Moments

The Lady says:

"I just decided that I hate Shithead.

AHHHHH!!!! I simply am plain crazy! How could I hate someone who just doesn't know he's doing something that's pissing me off? Crazy, isn't it?"

An entry I made a long time ago to express sentiments I neither have any control over nor have any desire to. He didn't really do anything. And it could simply and easily be because he's on day-off, late or on leave! Then I'd just feel terribly upset with him. Now it's happening to someone else! And all I can say is "Ha!". Hehe

The Witch and I were at Starbux, waiting for the Bitch to finish up with work, when all of a sudden something draw me from my semi-stupor state! Did the Witch just said "I hate him"? It just struck me like a lightning and couldn't help saying (when I realized it) that that's me during my Shithead days!!! And I delighted myself with informing her of this realization. And I think she had that stunned look that says "Oh My God!" Then I think she said "Leche" or "No!" or something to that effect. Hehe

But I have to say, it really is a first. The Witch has never been like this before. The Witch never all of a sudden hates someone just because he's somewhere else! The guy freakin did nothing deserving an "I hate him" line. All I can say to the Witch is, "Beware!". This is dangerous! Hehe

An advice though. Enjoy it! I did. :)

The Witch says:

It was mildly entertaining to realize that I'm going crazy over a guy. As the Lady said, I've never been like this before. It's rare that you'd see me writhing with irrational feelings. I've always been in control of my emotions (on almost all occassions anyways). And now, one guy later, I can't keep my myself still because the very thought of him stirs my mind into a crazy stupor. How amusing is that?

Heck, I've been crazy before. With all the brouhaha that I pulled myself into? Sheesh, nothing new really. But crazy over a guy? Been there too...not like this though. It's so hard to explain really. You'd have to see the difference to believe. Hahaha~

I did tell the Bitch I grew up backwards. From being NBSB, I went into a very long a serious relationship. Then I went through the single-and-all-the-men-want-me phase. It's only now that I'm going through the I-have-a-crush-on-someone-hope-he-likes-me-too stage and it's killing me.

The Bitch Says:

i was having problems thinking up something to write particularly for this blog since i was thinking "i dont have shithead moments" and then when i was about ready to give up and just say i dont have any, up came something..

Ok. Don't you just hate it when you want to do something fun and somebody stands in the way saying the cons weigh more than the pros of what you're going to do and you decide that maybe (even after ranting) that person is right after all and maybe that person is just really concerned. And then the tables turn and this person suddenly wants your advise on the pros and cons of a thing they really want to do, and you weigh it and point out that the cons are much too dangerous (not even just a con) but you find out that even after all the protests and the convincing, that the person actually went through with it anyway..? ~breathe~

Dont you hate that? i do. I hate the fact that if that person says that you shouldnt do something, then you cant do it and when you go and tell that person not to do something, they just go ahead and do it anyway like you never said anything...

i hate it.. shit-head moments ~

Curse Broken Pics

Wackiest pics of the day! We're so lost we don't even know it's already taking our pictures.

At Kamiseta

Of course, we're not gonna tell who's who in the picture.

Curse Broken

The Lady says:

Curse finally broken! It's our day-off finally. And it's a first for the Bitch. She's been clamouring for a Sat-Sun off and she's been finally been given one. And we're finally setting off for the movies. Hopefully.

You see, we've got this "curse" that keeps creeping up on us. Whenever we plan to go out for a date, the Witch, the Bitch and I, one always ends up cancelling or the weather just won't agree with us. It's either one forgot a prior commitment or the big storm just decided to pass by the Philippines (and no matter what you say, that's one big Bitch you just won't be able to stop if she wanted a visit!). And now I think we're seeing another break on the curse's winning streak! Yey for us!

The one good thing about this though is, it's most likely to be fun! It has all the signs. You see, whenever the "curse" gets broken, I usually am not on my best. I usually am low on funds, either because the Bank debited my Savings without dispensing cash or I'm just not liquid, and I usually haven't had any sleep yet. And I'm currently both! Things are looking up. Hihi~

Cross your fingers, girls! :)

The Witch says:

The Lady was right. Whatever the Lady predicted this morning really happened. I woke up early, I was there at Starbucks early. We got to Trinoma early. And I got home a bit late. Hahaha~ That summarizes fun believe me.

The first ten minutes of having to figure out how to get from ABS-CBN to Trinoma was hilarious enough (that beats my getting lost goin to Megamall so I ended up in Alabang story), now imagine the pains we had to go through looking for the Cinema THEN looking for Powerbooks. We actually got tired looking for the bookstore. WE GOT TIRED WALKING INSIDE A MALL. Imagine that! Thank goodness Joe was there and he pointed us to the right direction. Then of course, there's the food. Yum, yum. Coffee too. Sweets. And Timezone. Time Crisis 4! Weeeee~ And Daytona. We sooooo love that.

We went off to the Bitch's place afterwards. We finally got to hang around and just talk. Mostly about gerger and boys and all that fun stuff girls talk when the doors are closed. Hihihihi~ They even had me eat chicken feet for the first time! Ugh! And of course, the Lady would incessantly laugh at me for having my "shithead" moments. Hmmm...Mine's not a shithead but I'd sure like to get my hands on him. Hahahaha~ No one mentions his name here, he could be reading...*wink-wink*

All in all, the curse got broken and we all had fun. Who needs a boyfriend now? Hahahaha~

The Bitch Says:

Back logs. i have back logs left and right! finally got to writing in this thread.. i'm actually the charm who broke your curse! hahaha~ sheer determination.. well, yeah we finally were able to go through with the whole deal of walking around (literally) a mall and catching a movie and pigging out. although the fact that the Lady slept on my living room sofa before the night was over kinda felt like... we got cheated out? hahaha~ road trip indeed! i think it took what? a total of 15 minutes to get from the offce to trinoma! hihihi~

Was a great day though. Even though after you guys left i still had a fight fest with my one and only.. and then fell asleep immediately afterwards.. apparently he got all jealous because of the time i spent with you guys and he says that i never spent that much time with him and that id simply always say i was sleepy.. hihihihi~ o well..

Great to finally get a sat-sun off.. although a saturday out is really pushing the limit since id have to be up 24hours .. heck.. aint a money saver day too.. but what the hell.. i have a life! woohoo~!!!

Breaking Point

The Witch says:

Ten thousand things happening and I could only control a few of them. Let them spin out of control, after all, my sphere of influence is very limited.

After a 20 hour stint at work, my mind went off like a broken light bulb last night. Everything just went away. Work was just a memory, family was just a set of people I come home to, friends would be there the following day when I wake up, and the various angsty younglings trying to make a mark in MY world were comparable to insects.

The joys of stress. When you reach the breaking point, you're bound to release all the pent up energy in a burst of wild fury...then gone.

Bad thing though about my case was immediately after, I face yet another heart stopping, headache commencing issue and I can't pull myself together. Similar to that point right after orgasm when your entire body is racked with such power, then nothing. And though you'd want to commence to round two, you're just too spent up to even pull your head up. Hmm...maybe that wasn't such a good sample. But that's exactly where I am at. The after sex nothingness and the satisfaction of having to go through TOO MUCH squandered in such a SHORT TIME.

Forget it! I'm sure no one's getting this.


The Lady says:

Finally! I get around to doing this. My apologies to the Witch. Yesterday was so hectic that the Bitch and I weren't able to attend to this business immediately but I now am free to do so. And I shall begin with something for the Witch.

Much of what you have to say was a riddle to me and to think I've known you for a while. But I think I can say for sure that I may not fully understand but I truly feel. I may not be there to advise but I will always here to listen. But don't worry you'd still hear crazy advice from me. What kind of a friend would I be if I don't come up with nutty suggestions from time to time? Can't just let you reach your breaking point without a fight, now can I? I like a crazy, even a lunatic for a friend but a broken one? Let's just say I'd rather prevent it than work on it. :)

Breaking point? I don't really like the word. It connotes too much of losing control. And the one thing that really bugs me about life is that sometimes spinning out of control is normal! I don't like that one bit. So in efforts to save myself from the sanity, I'd rather think of that critical moment when you think you're going to lose it up there as a "Boiling Point". As to that, you can say I've had moments that I had to spend sometime in front of the mirror trying to fix my do. What can I say? pulling on my hair seems to be the most reasonable thing to do at that time. Hihi~

There has been times though that it becomes so much of a trial that pulling on my hair really seems to be the only thing that's keeping me from lashing out! Like today. I woke up in a very bad mood. I think we can officially say I'm PMSing! I started out with pulling my hair literally because it won't do what I want it to do! And someone hid the hair iron so I had no weapon to assist me! Then the freaking cab driver took me around the world before getting me to work. And I didn't trust myself to speak because I might make the driver emotional and it's never good to make someone cry if their the ones on the wheel. AND OH MY GOD!!! You think getting to work was a relief to get away from the driver? NO! It was the opposite. Already in a hair pulling mood, the last thing I want to hear is someone blowing his own horn. And this guy is really pulling all the stops! It would have been fine if he was just playing but this one is really serious! Arghhh! I did say I'm PMSing, right?

I have not known anything that can break me but then again I'm kind of crazy at the moment. No one can really say how much you can trust what I'm saying now. But one things for sure, life's crazy! People will rub you the wrong way and things will not go your way. You will reach your boiling point! Let it. You are entitled to bouts of craziness every now and then. Remember though, after the lows, the only way is UP.

And now I really have to go because if I listen to this GUY any longer, I'd start pulling my hair again! Or hit him over the head with the keyboard!

The Bitch Says:

I agree with our Lady friend here. We can listen but nutty suggestions here and there wont hurt. not saying that that's all you'll ever hear or get from us, but hey. stress can make you go crazy and i think craziness can actually get you out of that whole "breaking point" cycle... Sad to say though sweetie that most of time, we really cant control the things happening to and around us. Fate is of sadistic nature, i dont really know if fate laughs at us lowly earthlings and enjoys watching us fall flat on our faces or pull our hair out because of all the anxiety that it brings.

the orgasm comparison doesnt leave much to the imagination though. instead of feeling tired and stressed it kinda got me wanting to... ok lets not get into that..

this guy on the floor just started ranting in tagalog and at the exact time that the big boss in going around and fuming.. tsk tsk.. not such a good idea. i asked him to stop. he got a call. gad. he can always rant in english right? still would sound as hearty as if it was in any language. o well.. guess he's reached HIS breaking point.

it actually takes a lot for me to reach my breaking point, i don't know. probably because i've always had good control over my stress level. heck maybe if i stick coffee beans in my nose my stress would prolly disappear... hihi~

The Witch says:

I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm just tired. And when you're tired, you'd get to a point when you're willing to let go of anything and everything.

That Fear

The Witch says:

I would always say that we should conquer our fears. That fear is brought about by our need for someone or something to be constantly present in our lives. In order to conquer your fear you should also be willing to lose anything and everything.

Yesterday I received a message from someone. Nothing serious, but it got me really interested. He said my friend is interesting and he would tell me about it when he's got the time. What piqued me was that we really don't have any common friends. The closest would be the people we both worked with back then. Nothing more. So who's this friend of mine who said something really hilarious and which he found out?

After that, I told another friend that I'm suddenly "afraid". I explained that somehow I fear that he was able to get some information that I don't want him to have or know. Then I realized, I'm actually, truly afraid of him. Does that mean I'm afraid of losing him? Or am I afraid of losing my freedom from him?

Does that mean my fear revolves around him? Scary thought really.

The Bitch Says:

You know how they go "there's nothing to fear but fear itself"? i think thats just plain whacky. heck if you fear something, go ahead and fear it. overcoming the fear doesn't mean you never feared it. We're human, aren't we supposed to have these feelings to know how to deal with them? if you never had it, how would you know what to say come the time someone would come up to you and say i fear this and that?

Fearing something don't mean you cant face up to it sweetie, maybe it just means that you need to work at it more than most of what you come up against. conquering the fear doesn't mean you never had it and overcoming it (though it makes you stronger) doesn't mean it won't come back. It will. you'll just be a lot less afraid.

live it. embrace it. what ultimately doesn't kill you will make you stronger...

The Lady says:

I woke up this week feeling "off". Nothing has gone right since then. And I'm afraid that it won't stop with this week... You'd think this is my FEAR? No. It's just one of them.

My fear is making UNTENABLE mistakes. I made a lot and I've come to terms with them but you'd wonder why I would still fear them? Because there are mistakes I can live with and has gone out of my way to make them but there are some that I'd rather have not made at all. To make mistakes on purpose for me means I made it for a purpose and I've come to the conclusion that it's worth the mistake. To make mistakes without meaning to means I didn't realize it was one until it's too late.

TOO LATE

Too late... I contacted a friend and told her that someone thought I was something that I wasn't. But why did I do that? It's been a while since we've seen each other that it's no longer accurate to say we're close but we can definitely say that she was close to HIM. He is her best friend.

My fear is that I'm a coward. Unbrave...

My fear is that I may be weak after all... Your fear should be if you ever take advantage of this and find out that I'm not weak after all. (Talk about defensive!) :)

Beautiful As You

The Bitch says:

the Witch and i were talking yesterday.. about possible plans of going out of the country to take a break.. too bad the Lady is scared silly of traveling.. anyway, the Witch was telling me about some things that i felt were issues that she's been living and putting up with for a very long time .. and still has to.. i don't feel pity, i actually thought its what gives the Witch strength. i don't pretend to know everything and i certainly admit that responsibility comes in different forms for all of us.. i try to listen, since i learned that its actually the best thing that a person can do to another person. No advice. No talking. No judging. Nothing. Just listen. some actually make a living out of it..

i was listening to some music and this song played.. and the first person who came to mind was the Witch.. not everybody can be as strong.. and not everybody can be so under appreciated..

"Beautiful As U"

From the moment I saw you
From the moment I looked into your eyes
There was something about you I knew, I knew
That you were once in a lifetime
A treasure near impossible to find
And I know how lucky I am to have you

Cause I've seen rainbows that could take your breath away
The beauty of the setting sun, on any given day
And when it comes to shooting stars I have seen a few
But I've never seen anything as beautiful as you

I can't believe that I have you
I can't believe that you're here in my arms
I've been waiting a life time for you, for you
And I've dreamed about you
Pictured in my mind who I would see
But I never imagined just how beautiful you'd be

Cause I've seen rainbows that could take your breath away
The beauty of the setting sun, on any given day
And when it comes to shooting stars I have seen a few
But I've never seen anything as beautiful as you

From the moment I saw you
From the moment I looked into your eyes

* i took out some of the repeats and the echos and all the "oohs" :)

The Witch says:

Aww...*hugs* to the Bitch.

As you'd always say, life's bitch but I'm fighting back. That should be enough to keep me going for the next few years. The spirit is a hard to destroy and I'm only glad I've friends who can see mine as beautiful.

If there's one thing I've learned and which I hold true, it's that you should know who you are deep inside. Know the person and not the face. See the soul living in the body. Love yourself for what you are rather than what you have done.

Then we all be beautiful. Hehehe~

BTW, the Lady and I might go out later. I've been itching to head out and see a movie.

The Lady says:

Just for clarification, I'm not truly sure that I'm afraid of flying but I don't think it's ideal to find out while on flight (Hihi). So until I am comfortable with the idea, I think I'll pass for now. To the Witch and the Bitch, you guys should feel free to travel though. :)

The Witch and I have been down this path before. The Witch has heard me rant about life before and I heard hers. There was even that time that I was suppose to start crying while I was ranting but the Witch stole the thunder from right under me! You can't really feel sorry enough for yourself to cry while someone else is in a sorrier state than you are, now can you? Not that I begrudge you for "out-crying" me. Now, the Witch has always been that person that's nice but when required, she shows some claws... sometimes. That's why she's a cat! And so far, there hasn't been a hurdle that's undone her. It sometimes stuns her but never keeps her down! So cry all you want, just make sure you stop long enough to pick yourself up. What can't kill you, makes you strong! And we're plenty strong now! :)

As for the rest of the world, if they can't see me for who I am, then it's fine with me. So long as they don't cross me, I am fine with LIFE. I am beautiful inside and out but if there are days that I don't feel that I am, to hell with the world! I am changing and I'm not doing it because the world needs it but because I want and i need it. I'm not some perfect marble statue of Venus that's waiting for Time to wear it down. I am Time. I am dynamic and I am changing.

The Witch, the Bitch and the Lady are all changing! If you can't stand it then stand aside. :)


The Witch says:

Well said. Though, the curse with our movie dates better stop soon.


The Lady Says:

I totally agree. :)

The Bitch Says:

Saturday after shift movie has to push through.. even if i have to drag you two with me! (heck that stupid curse has to be stopped!)

tHe wOrsT tHinG...

the Bitch says:

at one point, there was something really really bad that we did... something that we're not amazingly proud of, but we did it anyway. and its just there.

heres mine:
there was this guy... way back in college. he had a girlfiend. i had a boyfriend.. i was new in school so everybody was curious about the "new girl".. to make it shorter, he broke up their 3 year relationship to be with me. sweet isnt it? i wasnt at all into him, but there was the whole "what the hell" idea. the whole situation was ideal. no commitment, and there when you feel a little frisky. all i needed to do was bat an eyelash and we'd be at his place or in one o' those "themed places" getting it on. it was convenient.. much like what the Witch wants... and has... eventually i got tired of playing him.. i stopped talking to him.. even when i would run into him in school.. or anyplace.. it just wasnt as interesting and exciting as when it started.. with the whole "ex girlfriend hating the Bitch because the Bitch stole her boyfriend part..." i eventually dropped him like a hot potato and moved on the next conquest...he never even saw it coming.. one day we were getting it on, the next day nothing. not even a "thanks, it was fun". everybody else thought i was a bitch for doing it, i simply shrugged and said "it was fun while it lasted".. and like i've always said...life's a bitch.. deal with it...


The Witch says:

That's not so bad sweetie. I couldn't quite decide which would be my worst. Let's wait for the Lady first then I go.


The Lady says:

I don't like saying no to people. And as much as we don't like to, let's face it, we have to say "NO!" or "Fuck off!" at times. Pardon my French but it's true. That's not bad. What's bad is that I allow people to think I'm wrong to say no.

I could say that this is one of those things that I knew was bad but I just kept on doing anyway. People deserve the truth no matter what or who they are. It hurts them more for me to allow them to keep on thinking that they are entitled to something that they're not! Better to give them a bitch-slapping of their life rather than allow them their sanctimonious sulk.

You see my hand? Don't look so scared because it won't come to bitch-slapping if you will just look at the expression of my face. An ounce of prevention is worth a pound of... soothing ointments.

Ahmmm... You could say this isn't really a good day to ask me "What's wrong?" ;)

The Witch says:

It took me a while before I could finally decide. Unfortunately, I could actually categorize this as my worst and best. If you know me, you'd perfectly understand why I said that.

Almost a year ago, I was chatting with my bestfriend. She was "sad" she got pregnant early and had to get married. I said I envu her for that and I wish I could have someone take care of me. I went on to tell her that even when I fuck the entire population of Metro Manila no one would care. She said if she can do it, she would. That moment the Witch had her epiphany.

I took my wallet and my phone and called someone I swore I'd never sleep with. I went to his place and went through the deed. I went back to work after a few hours and sent my besty a message over chat. She asked me where I've been to. I said, "I just fucked someone. And as expected, no one cares."

Worst? Yeah. I was at my lowest. I felt like I'm worth that little and so I was willing to forego anything just to get any kind of intimate attention. Best? It is, cos I learned that I can do what I want to do, when I want to without having to answer to anyone. It took me that moment to realize that, how sad.