What About Love

The Witch says:

What about falling in love? What's so special about it that as far as written history is concerned it has been the subject most written and talked about. The greatest writers, poets and songwriters have dissected the promise and the story behind all avenues of falling.

I say you fall in love and you need not ask why or how or what. Accept that it happened and be thankful if it did. It's special in the sense that it's inexplainable, not because you can't verbalize it.

Lemme see...The last time I fell in love...it wasn't too nice. Period. Hahaha~ And the Bitch and the Lady can attest to that.

The Lady says:

I believe in tragedy and from what I've seen that's what falling in love is all about. The joy, the bliss of falling and being then the pain, the tears that comes from the loss. I may not know what falling in love means or being in love but I have seen what people would like to call love and it's always a profound experience.

Profound experience? It is but it doesn’t go without saying that sometimes it can be irritating. There are a lot of things that I've witnessed and I've come to accept that it's part of the game but there's one thing I could not accept. The part where they would fight for love but when in fact the person you're fighting for doesn’t seem to love you at all? Would you actually call it love when someone continuously disrespects you as a person? Would it still be love when it's just words?

A love that's not returned they say is tragedy in the making but that's what they call selfless love. Then again if truly is selfless, won't letting go be its ultimate form? Letting go so that the one you love can find the one that will make them happy and make them a better person.

Okay so I'm rambling again... But falling in love for me at the moment is a teddy bear. I never really thought myself as a teddy bear kind of person but one night, there was a noticeable lack of pillow at home so I had to make do with the one thing that's available - a teddy bear. So I grabbed the bear and spent the night hugging the furry bundle and I found that it was really nice. And the thought that I actually want one was surprising and the more I think about it, the more I want one. It's simple, honest and that for now will suffice for my definition of falling in love. Oh and it has to have a face of West from Heroes.

The Bitch Says:

Can it really be defined? i mean, seriously? CAn it be planned? predicted? it should be! haha~ i mean, i know it takes the fun out of everything, but heck planning and predicting when and where and why and how you fall in love might be fun at the part where you eliminate all the hurt "possibly" that comes with it. in a "perfect world" kind of scenario.

so i guess, all i can say about it is: "love? what about it?"

dont get me wrong, i can say that i am pretty happy right now that i am in love with one person, and i cherish this because primarily i don't know how long it will last. Let's not sugar coat anything, it will sound plain stupid to say that this is going to be forever... Realistically speaking, i have no freakin' idea if this is "it" or this is just the tip of the iceberg...

so like i said: "love? what about it?"

The Witch says:

What about love indeed?

I can't seem to decide whether there's too much attention given to it or too little. Sometimes I'd even go as far as saying I never knew what love is like. Of course I'm lying.

Fact is though, as hard as I try to not notice it, the more it stares back at me with guiltless eyes. And you know what? I stare back with fear.

So what about love?

Risking It

The Witch says:

It's been a month since the last update, what's up with us girls? Are we losing interest? I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. About changes and the risks that we take. I then remembered something I used to say a lot. You can only lose what you risk.

What are you willing to risk?

The Lady says:

Hi! It's been a while, I know, but it can't be helped. Hayyy... Next time I think I'm ready, can you guys try to remind me how fun life is the way it is... Anyways, I guess I have always known that there would be sacrifices when I took the position and sacrifice I did but losing the luxury of almost always having the time to do anything I want can't stop me from bemoaning the loss. I feel it and of course the Witch and the Bitch are definitely feeling it. Sorry girls, but you did wish it for me! :)

So I wonder, what am I really willing to risk? I once thought I don't ever want to risk anything. I love what I'm used, the place where I'm at but then I realized I will risk anything except for one thing. I will never risk losing myself! I have always felt that my personality has been tugged by a lot of factors in different directions and sometimes it can't be helped but if there's one thing I've discovered is that there always a choice. The choices may not always be what you want but it's still a choice. And I will make it only when I'm good and ready. I won't ever risk losing me by giving in to pressure from anyone because that's not who I am. My parents' know it and so does my friends. And I think I may have to cling hard to it now more than ever...

I am at a place where people thought someone else is better in my place but I will have to show them that they are wrong. They may think they made a mistake but I will show them that it's not their fault. It just so happens that I'm really good when I want something. And I really know my strengths and weaknesses and I know how to exploit both to my advantage. Risks? Everything but me. :)

The Witch says:

Sweetie, the question was about what you can risk, not what you can't risk. Oh well...

I wish I could say I'm willing to risk everything, after all you only experience fear when you're afraid of losing something. Unfortunately, I'm not a human bone marrow with no nerve endings.

It took me a while to think of that one thing I'm willing to risk. Upon re-reading and internalizing what the Lady wrote I realized I'm her exact opposite. I can risk myself and I'm more than willing to lose myself. It's the only thing I could say is entirely mine and by willingly risking it, I'm freeing myself from the fear of not having it thus I gain everything instead of losing everything.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'd willingly risk myself, the now and the present, to give way to my future self however big a gamble that may be. Too much you say? I say push yourself to the limits.

The Bitch Says:

I am willing to risk... shoot, i dont know. I think its easier to say what im NOT willing to risk.. i know its pasaway in a sense and it kinda takes the whole essence of the title or the blog, but heck, i cant think of anything in my life to risk over something... Ok, that sounds freakin' selfish, but its true. i wish to remain as happy and as contented as i can with myself, and everything around me. and i'm not sorry about thinking that way. maybe its time to be selfish and not want to risk anything. that doesnt mean you're afraid, that just means you value whats yours. and intend to keep it.

selfish as it may be to others, who cares? if you keep brooding over what others think and what they feel and whatnot, how the heck are you going to live for yourself? and the lady is right, riski losing yourself? no way. no how. so there.

To Be Right

The Witch says:

Two kids were playing in a park and they began to argue. One said, “I hate you. I’ll never play with you again.”

For a few moments they played separately then later they’re playing together again. How do kids manage to be so mad in a minute and be best of friends the next? Simply because it’s more important for them to be happy than to be right.

Then why when I’m on the path of chasing my happiness I always stop myself simply because I know I’m wrong? Does the rule change just because you’re aware of what’s right and what’s not? Then maybe the cloud of innocence is nothing but a myth. You’re never innocent, you simply ignore what’s wrong and you choose happiness despite that fact.

Or maybe, I’m just thinking too much. Life is meant to be lived as I would always say. You’re not supposed to think through it, you’re supposed to experience it. Then why can’t I?

The Lady says:

I don't think innocence is just a myth. We were innocent once but as our world gets bigger and things gets more complicated, we have to make room for it and innocence gets pushed over the edge. There just isn't any room for it anymore. There's only room left for excuses? I don't know.

I totally disagree about ignoring right just to be happy is innocence. I've done that and it never gave me the happy ending I wanted and it didn't seem innocent as well! If innocence is the key to happiness, we're all doomed. None of us are innocent but happiness will come. It will maybe if we try a little harder.

I don't know how hard we have to try but sometimes there's nothing else to do but try. I think maybe we're just not clear on what we want? Fate I think needs to clean out her ears. It's right to be wrong? I'd rather be that it's right to be naughty! Hihi.

I know I'm rambling and my train of thought is fragmented so you'll just have to pick on the pieces and choose whichever! :)

The Witch says:

I agree. Your train of thought is somewhat like mine, a wreck. What took you guys too long to answer my bloggie entry?

The Lady says:

Too busy! Haay. When will you become regional? I'm hungry for a treat! :p

The Witch says:

You make it sound like an easy thing to transition too! When are YOU gonna be...errr...anything? I want my treat too!

The Bitch Says:

I'm late again.. tsk tsk .. like the lady said.. busy.. ;) hehehe. anyway, what are we talking about here? o yeah, the relation of innocence to happiness. my take on this is, innocence stumbles into happiness and takes it as that. nothing else. me, id rather know what makes and is making me happy than accidentally stumble into it..

and quoting the Witch: our dear sweet lady.. we look forward to the day we call you "boss" :)

Curse Broken

The Witch says:

Curse broken. Again. Whoever said we won't get it done again? Well, I only have one picture on my phone but I'll post the others from a different day.

Unavailable

The Lady says:

We haven't done this in a while and we haven't gone out for the longest time now. It seems like the Curse is back again! But this hiatus kind of made me think about my current status. I know that we spout that we're independent and we're loving it but it makes me wonder. Are we really loving it?

Don't get me wrong. I love the freedom! But I sometimes wonder if underneath it all there's a desperation for that other someone. Then again, if I really am desperate, why is it that I have a tendency to shutdown any chance of dates in the horizon? Not that it's all me. Sometimes fate also conspires against it. And it's not that there's a lot of dates on the horizon but the point it is they're there. Shouldn't I grab every opportunity as if it's my last? I feel like I should be making an utter fool of myself trying to get hitch or atleast getting some instead trying to evade it. Instead, here I am, snoozing my weekends away!

I really don't know what or why it is but I am single and unavailable! Go figure.

Note: I think the Witch and I would be in agreement that it would really be interesting what the Bitch has to say on this or if she can really say anything about this at all. Hihi

The Witch says:

Now, now, the curse will be broken again I'm sure. So in that area, no worries I say!

On being unavailable though, well, that's something I deal with daily. I always say I'm single and desperate only because I can't find anyone good enough. The real reason though is that I'm just too busy being busy or too busy not being busy to actually explore.

I'm more vocal than the Lady when it comes to admitting my NEED to be with someone. Of course having been with someone before made me realized all the more what I'm missing. Being single has a lot of advantages though. I literally have all the time in the world. I can do anything I want anytime I want, I can cancel anything whenever I feel like it, I never have to consult anyone for anything. I'm not saying though that it's all fun. Loneliness would often time creep in and I'd be...errr...wanting.

To the Lady, please don't grab every single opportunity thinking it's your last. You're more than that. The moment you start thinking no one's coming, then they'd stop coming. Let them. Hahaha~ Enjoy the show while you can. I know, I know you'd say I'm just saying it. Fact is, if I'm as desperate as I make you guys think maybe I wouldn't have had just one mistake over a span of 3 years. I would have had at least a dozen. Hahahaha~

The Bitch Says:

I'm late. Sorry. Although i wouldnt count me out just yet. I never said being unavailable was fun all the time. and i know you both can attest to that . Fact of the matter is, i DO miss being like you guys. The whole she bang of being available? its in the past. and i honestly dont know how i would ever survive again once there. Although now that i think about it, i dont think i ever left that place.. maybe a part of me is still there, wanting to feel available. Not wanting to be tied up.

To the Lady and the Witch, dont sell yourselves short, there are times when i would loooooove to be in your shoes. Its not all sunshines and roses on this end either you know.

;P

Fairytales

The Lady says:

I was chatting with my friend last week and we somehow ended up with me saying "Fairytales never include dating, only happy endings!" I felt that this somehow reflects how unrealistic fairytales can be. And then it hit me (after a weekend of doing nothing except going thru several movies). Fairytales do reflect life in a compressed way. Of course you just have to look very closely to see.

Take for example "Cinderella". Ofcourse Cinderalla is us, figuratively speaking. Many might object but come on, don't say you never once thought of yourself as maltreated by life at one point or another. And please don't even tell me that you ever preferred cleaning up other people's mess than go to a ball, well, for us it's called plain going out and having fun! Dating would be when Cinderella was dancing with prince while the pitfalls of dating or conlict is represented in so many scenes and characters on the book. There is the evil stepmother and stepsisters to represent conflict and ofcourse the curfew by the fairy godmother to represent restrictions telling us to go slow. If you've got nothing else to do (because you're low on dough) you could re-read and you'll find that there's more to Cinderella than you think!

No matter how frivolous you may think fairytales are, you'll find that life is more represented in them that you'd care to think. Get past the ball gown and the helpless female persona, you'll see that it's camouflage for the real thing. Remember, these authors are adults trying to make a living. They have to make their real life experiences fantastical, whimsical and children-friendly to earn their way. So when reading fairytales, just think of them as super sugar coated versions of our lives. Oh but where is our happy ending? Ahmmm... I did say fairytale is a compressed version of life so happy ending might come a little later and with a little more work.

The Witch says:

I think that every story is a real story somehow. Settings may change or the characters may be fictional but in the end, one sees it as a reality that one of the many souls was able to live in the countless alternate universe. Parables, fables, biographies, poems, news etc are but a different face of the this fairytale we so long to re-live.

Heck, the good thing about fairytales compared to others is that there's always a happy ending. And as I told the Lady, there's always the Prince, for anyone with a heart of a princess the thought that you'd always, always have your happy ending is worth all the brilliance of any novels across the ages. That's why we'd rather look at fairytales as is and not shred it into pieces as you dissect each part and nuisance. After all, you'd want to see it as is, unblemished and pure, not just as another story.

The Bitch Says:

I think i was that friend... hihihhi~

Its true though.. how come fairytales never include dating? they'd get a glimpse of one another and fall madly in love and the prince would do everything even die for the princess and they'd live happily ever after. How come theres never anything like that that happens in real life. granted thats why they're called fairytales but theres nothing for us to go on. nothing we can even remotely use to our advantage. Do you think that if we build a huge barrier of thorns around us, or lock ourselves in a tour, run away from prince charming, the princes in our drab little daily lives would run after us? come save us from the drudge that we are in? hmmm...

But then we all want to believe with all our hearts that we are the princess who the handsome prince would one day find and free from the clutches of the evil witch.. heck who wouldnt want to believe that right?

We all want our happy ending, dont we? have you ever wondered when YOUR happy ending will finally come? when your prince charming will finally defeat the dragon and rescue you from your prison tower? hmmm...

That 1 liner

The Bitch Says:

I was walking around the mall the other day... when i saw this 1 liner that made me think..

~ Live each day as if no one was watching ~

You know how people by nature are always so worried about what other people think of the things they do, the way they act, they way they talk, the way they walk.. virtually everything is judged in this society. So i saw something in that 1 liner that made me think "why dont we do just that?" live everyday of our lives as if we were the only person on earth. eat what you want, prance, bounce when you walk, sashay if you want to, laugh out loud, brush your hair while walking around the mall, talk with your mouth full (try not to spit though).. Why are we always so afraid of how people judge us despite the fact that we know we are not in any way doing harm.. that we are not in any way breaking the law or the rules of humanity.. as long as we do our good deed for the day, does it really matter if we happened to burp or fart in public? human nature has its way of being natural and unacceptable at the same time. double standard in essence..

What do you think?

The Witch says:

Though I am one who tries not to be affected by everything, I won't lie and say that I am unaffected because most probably I am. Trying is hard enough.

I've long been told that I should stop thinking about what people think of me. I asked how do I do that when from the start I've been told to always "mind my manners" or "be nice in public" because people might say things that would be degrading to me and my family. Just like most things, I would like to think that it's our upbringing that leads us here, a life that's so consciously lived we can't move properly.

A few months back for example I had coffee with an old friend I haven't seen in years. I used to be a really shy gal who got this "hindi makabasag pinggan" image. Then I showed up and I literally turned the coffee house upside down. I've been known lately as someone who's loud and bratty. Well, the entire night my friend kept on telling me, "slow down, no need to say that out loud, everyone can hear you." I looked around every time he'd say that, guess what, no one's listening cause everyone else is busy with their own conversations. WHY'D HE TOLD ME OFF? Don't ask me.

I guess, we could all try to do what we do and be oblivious to everything and everyone. Of course, we've been pre-programmed to think and act otherwise. It won't hurt to try though. Sometimes, the best things are those enjoyed by yourself. As a matter of fact, my most favorite thing to do while walking in public places is to sing out loud. My ex would usually laugh at me and ask me why I do it when there are people around me. I would answer, "Kase naiisahan ko sila, I'm singing and enjoying myself immensely and they could care less, some don't even notice me and those who do can't care less."

The Lady says:

I think we were raised to care what people would think and that is the reason we rarely do things just simply because we want to. We know it's not going to kill anybody nor it's going to hurt anyone but it still buzz in the back of our minds if people would approve or not. Selfish of them, I think, to even try to have a say on my life. Why can't they focus on their life??? It's not going to kill them to do just that, would it?

Life is a learning process, a journey. I'd like to think that people along the way won't shoot me when I start wearing a different hair color. From my point of view, if there is a wrong hair color, there also is a wrong culture, wrong race, etc... I wouldn't live in a world, where everything seems to be getting us one step closer to adhering to Hitler's Life To-Do list. Exaggerated? Maybe but then people thought Holocaust ever happening was exaggerated until people started getting sent to Concentration camps. Lesson from that? Well, I know there is more lesson to that particular event in our history but for me it's simple. Unless what crosses my eyes offends me to my core, I'd let it pass. I think so long as they don't try to crowd me,. I'd be ok (I've got serious issues when it comes to this).

Life is life and there will be bumps and they're manageable. If not, then they'll just destroy you and I think, at that point, you should concentrate on picking the pieces of your life rather than concentrate on other people. Life is sunny and rainy but if you start focusing on the mud, all you notice is that you're dirty. Think sunny and getting tan or rainy and dancing! When people talk, think of it as if their music. There are just some music that you don’t care for so you just turn dial to another station or just edit your play list on your Ipod. Just one reminder though: There are some music worth listening to even if the tune is not to your liking.

Wishlist

The Witch says:

It took the Bitch and the Lady weeks before they got to add up their entries from the previous post as blogger was blocked from the netweork. How long will this blog survive, I ask. Hehehe~

I was texting the Lady earlier this night and then the Bitch later on. I told the Bitch that I want to make a new entry in the blog and asked her what could be our next topic. She said maybe we should make a wishlist. Ohhh, I love wishlists. So here goes!

Wish #1 - Peace of mind. Now, now, this ain't an easy wish, as a matter of fact I think this is quite harder to achieve than most things. I really feel that I need this now. Not because Im brewing a storm inside my head, rather I feel that I'm approaching that phase in my life where everything should be in sync with everything else. And it only follows that my mind should be the haven that I've been wanting.

Wish #2 - Constant companionship. With the turn of certain events in my personal life I couldn't help but wish for someone. And by that someone I mean a companion, a sould mate. Not necessarily a romantic partner (pwede rin) but rather someone like me who's exploring the world and wants to see everything but has no one to share it with YET. That would be nice.

Wish #3 - My own house/condo/apartment. I just need my own space. Home ain't as pleasant as I would want it to be. I just need a refuge. Hopefully I'd be able to work on this within the next few years. It's between this and wish #4.

Wish #4 - My own car. Yeah, albeit the skyrocketing price of gas and the momentous paymenst to be made including insurance, registration and maintenance, I still want one. For someone like me who can't commute without getting lost or who is always on the brink of a psychological breakdown whenever I'm left in a very public place (read Cubao or something similar) a car would inherently help give me the "peace of mind" I've been wanting.

Wish #5 - A job I love or a hobby I absolutely adore. I'm in that stage now. I'm trying to find my niche in this world. I want to be able to enjoy my life. With that, I realized I also have to be able to atleast find a job I love or at least a hobby that would balance my job and personal life into perfection.

Done! Now, I honestly think it would take time to see any of those to be realized. About 3-4 years ago I made another set of list. Digicams, a promotion and dating someone cute were part of the list and heck, it seems so easy to get those.

The Bitch Says:

When i told the Witch "let's do our wishlist!" i was initially thinking of what i'd really want to get by the next year or so. Of course, this would compose entirely of material things, but then i went another direction and thought, material stuff would be easy enough. I wanna get down to the nitty gritty wants ..

Wish #1 - My own car. I hate sharing the family car for the fact that i cant use it without having to check if anybody else had more pressing/important errands to run. although ive eliminated my brother as my strongest competitor..

Wish #2 - My iPhone. i have to wait till next year and that s a couple more months from now. i might have to wait for them to work out the kinks.. but then, eventually..

Wish #3 - i'm thinking #3 would have to be a "happy" job.. something that the Witch and I have been looking for.. personal shopper. cosmetics. fashion. everything that would interest the "girl" in us. shoot, who would want to work for a high paying company doing their shopping? i even saw this one article somewhere where this girl would be sent to Milan or somewhere in Europe to do shopping... Me and the WItch would love that

Wish #4 - i have always wanted to live on my own. Dont get me wrong, i love my family. the whole bunch. but then there are just times when you just want to be alone and you CANT because everybody else is there.. pains of being in a big family.. would be better if i had my own room, but, no. i dont even have my own room.. tsktsk.. sad..

Wish #5 - hmm.. can wish #5 be a genie? who can grant me any wish i want? not logical and highly improbable. i guess wish #5 can simply be that i find what im looking for in life.. be able to settle down.. have my own life.. find my own happines.. then maybe all the other 4 wishes would come..

The Lady says:

WORLD PEACE! That is my wish.

Sorry, sweeties. I'm not really into making wish lists.

Make Me Sexy

The Witch says:

I received a message from the Lady a few days ago announcing the considerable increase in her weight. Heck, I've always been obsessing with my weight since grade school, that is, until a few years back. Looking back, I realized it wasn't that bad. I wouldn't even consider myself overweight in any way. I thought, I feel sexier now than ever, though I'm "bigger" than what I used to be. I guess sexiness is a way of thinking and should always be held with a good dose of confidence.

With that I remembered several things that would never fail to make me sexy anytime, anywhere. One would be my stilettos. I just feel so girly when I'm wearing them. Another would be my minis. I might not have the best legs, but heck, I've gotten all the right reactions from the right people, ha! Last would be my "sexy" songs. Hearing them sends tingling sensations along the small of my back. Usher's "Yeah" makes me wanna head to the dance floor and just work it! The PCD's "Buttons" just gets me goin I could jump in cold water anytime. And of course, Beyonce's "Naughty Girl" just wants to make me do an instantaneous striptease.

The Bitch Says:

This post is long overdue. ever since mozilla got blocked at the office, it became harder to edit posts.. that and the fact that the wireless connection here at home reaches everywhere but my room... tsk tsk.. the Lady recently told me.. "screw losing the 10 lbs. i cant stop eating" i laughed. ive been saying the exact same thing, screw losing the pounds. of course the Lady blames me for the gain, i dont think its very drastic. who wants to stop eating? i agree with the Witch: stilletos, minis and a good list of sexy mp3s and i dont think id ever stop feeling sexy.. although a good gaggle of men who constantly tell you that you look hot doesnt hurt either... :) hihihihi~ i think the Witch and the Lady would agree with that..

The Lady says:

Capitalizing on my weight problem, huh? Well, let's. Hihi~ It was a shock to actually see how much I really weigh now. And it was like what Oprah said about big buttocks. You've got to face it because you never know when a three-way mirror will accost you with the truth. It's better way to find out the truth on your terms than be ambushed by it. In my case, it was my friend's bathroom scale that accosted me with the astounding truth! But with that truth came the realization that I REALLY am not as young as I used to be. So much apparently has changed and memory is blurry as if looking thru a window in a rainy day.

Looking back, I can't remember the last time that I ever felt sexy. I don't think what I thought was sexy before applies to me now. Thinking of doing it concsiously, feels so ridiculous, feels manufactured. I'm no longer sure what makes me sexy.

If sexy is really all in the mind, then I'm in trouble. Sexy to me now, I think, is when I'm on the beach dancing the night away with friends or me in my pjs with my bed and it's cotton sheets, a book in hand and my favorite tunes banging in the background. Is that weird? All I know is that it's me. I still crave for the night outs dancing, that I'm so missing out now, but not as much as before.

To the Witch and the Bitch: Can and/or was there ever a time that a "who" can make us sexy? Don't like the idea but I'm thinking it's a "Yes".

The Witch says:

Since you've opened up the "who"...I have to agree. Why one man can have so much hold on me? He's the only one who can make me feel sexy and all woman. As the Lady said about one of the guys I used to date, "he's not f*ckable" and that translates to me NOT feeling sexy because I'm dating a boring father-like dud. That's mean, but it's more than honest. So keel me.

Make it Happen

The Bitch Says:

I was watching TV this morning. And the ever popular Ms Kris Aquino came on with a Q card in her hand where she was reading off her next big punch line. Turns out, it wasn't such a bad line...

She says:

There 3 types of people in this world. One are those who get out there and make things happen. Two are those who just stand there and wait for things to happen. And three? those who ask "what happened?!"

There's truth to these phrases ... isn't there?

The Witch says:

Makes perfect sense. I've become one of each at one point I guess. With regards to job my career I'm the take charge kind of person. I try to make it happen, ora mismo! Sometimes I even think I'm rushing things. Now I'mt rying to slow down once again, I'm moving too fast and learning too little in the process. I'm not after short-term success after all. In my personal life I'm more the second type. I stand on one side and I wait it out. What's the point of rushing things or pushing for it. That just kills the romance. And when it comes to politics and the government I'm more the apathist that I'd like to accept. It's a sad thing really but some things are better ignored on a personal level than be psychotic about things much bigger than yourself and which you can't even control.

At the end of the day what's important is you're living your life the best way you know how. Whether you're taking charge, you're on the sidelines or plain oblivious.

The Lady Says:

Makes perfect sense?" or "...living your life the best way you know how."

Snippets(?) from the Witch that helped me look at the Bitch's entry and find words on what I feel about the subject. Three kinds of people, 3 ways on how to live your life best. But we all know there is no one way to live life. For every phase of our lives, there's a different way we lived it, whether we thought it the best way or not. It's possible that we thought then that it was the best but looking back we decide it wasn't or we think it was the worse way but decide that it wasn't. I say, looking back, it was the only way for us. Otherwise we would not have learned what we need to learn and we won't be us at all. We can regret the things in the past but we should never forget to learn from them.

Reviewing my life, I have been each of these 3 types of people. When I was in High School and College, I was playing between being out there and making things happen and just being there and waiting. I was young and inexperienced and that led me down into a lot of headaches. I could have done without it but it did buffer me for the future! You could say it made me thick-faced, well-shielded, prepared for what was to come (Parang giyera pupuntahan noh? It's Terminator: Rise of the MAchines). But then again, with youth and inexperience at hand, I'm thinking I was just into high-drama. It definitely was a bitter-sweet phase in my life.

Then after doing the College stint, I made one heave for making things happen, and I freed myself from dependence. I am now happily doing all 3 all at the same time when the situation calls for it and just doing the waiting and being oblivious sometimes. Amazing? Not really. But how do you do all three?! By wanting more than one thing at the same time. One you can work on and make it happen, another you've already worked on before or watched somebody else work on it for you (It may be even for themselves and you just want to share in the fruit of their labors. Hihi~) and you're just waiting for the result, and last would be something that went by so fast that it dazed you (but you're still interested in the outcome). But I think it's more relaxing when your just waiting and being oblivious. To hell with the fast lane. Can I just get back to it some other time?

Now, does that make perfect sense? Is that living your life the best way you know how? I don't know! All I know is that I can live with it. If you can't, well, I don't see how you can live my life for you to mind very much how I'm living it. Oh! Unless you don't have a life. In that case, get one!

To the Witch and the Bitch: Sorry, sweeties. I've been under the weather lately that I was only able to finish my share today. :S

The Witch says:

Yipee! Finally the Lady gets to finish this entry. What's next? Speaking of being under the weather, y'know I've been there this past few days. No worries though, nothing that a good night's sleep can't work on.

Addiction Special

The Witch says:

We were gone for quite sometime for various explainable reasons...simply put, we're busy.

As I was hitting my head with things that needs my attention as the day closes (for us working at night though it means we're just about to start the headache) I remembered a friend from work telling me how addicted he is with his current crush. That however badly he gets treated he still wants him around. When he said that, though I was boiling with anger, all I was able to say was, "I understand."

I've a lot of addiction...from the mundane daily things to the supernatural sensations that can only be likened to heavenly.

The Bitch Says:

With a good little threat the Witch left as an offline message.. I finally got to put in my entry. Addiction. i've lots! you doesnt ? things i would die without.. things i would cry over.. things that may not need my attention but certainly has it.. :) heck why wouldnt that be addicting? im addicted to that hot hot guy on our blog page.. i know all of us are heehee~

lets break it down.. caffeine, sms, beauty, passion.. lust..~

The Witch says:

Now that you've started pulling items off of the list I can't deny the fact that I'm addicted to almost the same thing. Coffee and chocolates are like marijuana to me. Men are quite addicting too, in a mental, psychological and physical manner. Shopping is another thing on my list. Having shopping bags on my hands is like having a wheel in a racer's hand. Heaven, sweet, heaven.

The Lady Says:

You know how it feels like standing in front of a blank brick wall? It feels numbing! You stand there and stare and nothing. You don't move and you don't talk. You just stare.

That's what it's been like this past week for me whenever I start trying to work on an entry for this. And it's really not that frustrating so long as you don't think about it too much... But I'm thinking that it's time to break through this wall and I only know of one thing to do to be able to do that. Break the wall! Smash through it and put your back into breaking it. And since it's imaginary, I just ate pancit malabon, drank white chocolate mocha frap to rid me of the slighty fishy taste of the pancit and then started playing words on my Notepad. There you go! Brick wall is now just useful only for creating mosaic. :)

Whew! Now that's overwith, let's talk about addiction. As defined by Merriam-Webster, "Addiction is a compulsive need for and use of a habit-forming substance characterized by tolerance and by well-defined physiological symptoms upon withdrawal." COld? Unfeeling? Well, all the elements of an addiction is there so it's good enough for me. Where it fails in words, it remains faithful in spirit for the kind of addiction I have in the real world.

What am I addicted to? I'm addicted to "nothing". There are many kinds of "nothing" that you can come across in this world. Most of them fun and thrilling, giving us the high that we need the most. Some of them you just thought was fun and thrilling but it really wasn't, wasting not only your time but your effort. Cheap thrills, I guess, is what you call it. But one thing is for sure, there's always a price. It could be as small as 1 hour (wasted or not) or as big as a chaotic week/month. You just have to decide if it was worth it. And that "nothing" has gotten me into more trouble that I'd care to think about. I can't help it? Maybe. But I think most of the time, I decided that curiosity doesn't always kill the cat. And sometimes it is so fun to get some of that "nothing" that paying the price is not that onerous anymore. It's what you can live with, as I always say. But when it deals you a unwanted and surprising hand, either deal or abandon all dignity and run. :)

Turning Point

The Witch says:

A friend once told me that you'd know a "turning point" in your life when you categorized events as coming before or after that moment or person. How true. Looking back, my stories are often preluded by the significant appearance or disappearance in my life.

I have one big turning point in my adult life. One point where one person appeared (and eventually disappeared) at the same time another person disappeared. And I owe everything of who I am to that turning point cos at the same time I went on overdrive and made a 180 degree turn-around.

I might have lost something back then. And I still feel the sadness whenever I'd remember what I was able to leave behind. It's hard saying goodbye to good memories after all, especially when the memory reaches way back through my childhood. It's like losing my innocence and finding out what a scary and exciting world awaits. I guess, in the end, I appreciate that the more. I don't see what I lost, rather I see what I gained when I lost my turning point.

The Lady says:

It was like a light bulb lighting up when I got this idea for the blog! And now I'm kind of regretting that I thought it up because this will sound so self-centered! Who is my turning point? I am my turning point.

There have been people I've encountered that has influenced me in one way or the other but never has there been anyone that has been made such an impact that for a while I was lost from my world and into that person. There has been deaths, births, marriages, and migration in the family but not one of them has created that impact that changed my life. But there has always been me. I have been experiencing and living all of these and more. I have enjoyed and I have hated. BUT I think my turning point was tha time in my life I realized my Life wasn't perfect.

My turning point was when I decided to grow up. Bitter-sweet...

The Bitch Says:

Turning point. hmm.. this is a little easy. My turning point would have to be the time i decided not to take so much crap from other people and start standing up for myself. i was one of those "mousy" people back in high school. and for some reason it stuck. they'd just tease me like crazy, id go home crying because of some nasty joke or some girl who just got all my friends mad at me for no reason..(rumors and all).. heck i was in high school. i didnt know any better. i was the new kid. i couldnt do anything because these people had known each other since forever. Come college, shoot, nobody knew anybody... except for some.. but in the long run, everybody was "new" shoot, i decided iwouldnt be the same withdrawn person i was way back when.. became more outspoken, wasnt afraid to say what was honest to me, heck if they couldnt handle it, i wouldnt even care. not that i became a mean bitch or anything.. oh no, wait, i did,, hihi~ in a way, my subconscious thought up a way to get back at the bullies. nobody deserved to be bullied. id have to say though that i was pretty happy that i have the bitch in me to defend myself. it was better than nothing.. definitely better than nothing..

New Design

The Witch says:

Nothing really big. It's just that the Bitch, the Lady and I met up for an impromptu coffee this morning and we went through several photos and decided we should change the blog design. We went through hundreds of pictures and decided this is perfect. We all agreed to use him *points at picture above* for being such an eye-candy.

The Lady says:

I concur! An eye-candy definitely. I only wish he's real. :)

The Bitch says:

Is THAT him!? hihihi~ he looks good enough to eat.. yum! gad, can we have him in our SIMs world? gardener? pool cleaner? cabana boy? hmm.. personal trainer.. i can think of a whole lot of other stuff i want him to be ...

tsk tsk.. beautifull aint he...

Breakfast Interlude

The Witch says:

Since the Bitch has been having tens and thousands of backlogs, I decided to just blog about our day. Y'see, I was supposed to have a training this morning thus, instead of coming in last night, I just went to work early morning. I ended up canceling that so called training and instead I had breakfast with the Bitch and the Lady at QC Sports Club (I almost got lost! I swear, one of these days I'd totally get lost and no one would be able to find me).

It's another first I guess, usually we'd have breakfast together AFTER all our shifts. It's fun having the same shifts as your friends. I promised the Lady that I'd bring the laptop over next time I drop by so we could blog together at Bux while waiting for the Bitch (she leaves last compared to me and the Lady). I also told 'em I wanted to install Sim2 and we could play as ourselves! Ain't that fun? Hahahaha~ Cos there we could finally make our dreams come true. The Witch being married to a rich, handsome guy who'd build her a mansion. The Lady living with the Witch cos she'd provide her with her own "wing" inside the house and she could use all her things and ride all her cars. And the Bitch sleeping over once in a while when she ain't too busy with her throng of men (she specifically requested not to create a BF for her on the Sims).

If only we could really live that life. Then maybe I can finally afford to have breakfast with them daily. BTW, it's the Lady's birthday next month. The Bitch and I have been thinking of a really exciting gift...though she insisted on getting something boring instead. Lemme think...

The Bitch Says:

I'm going to do this while the going is good. hihihi~ I am so totally proud of the Witch for making it to QCSC without getting lost.. i hate the fact that i get out of shift 4 hours after you guys do.. but i know you don't mind waiting, so im ok with that. and i can pretty much leave anytime i want to so it should still be good.

I'm so totally excited about our Sims world. i want to live in your mansion. a room for me will do. doesn't have to be an entire wing. but i want a walk in closet for my shoes, a walk in closet for my clothes, and a walk in closet for my bags. im thinking a pet, and oodles and oodles of hot guys. no beefy.. hihihihi~ heck, if im going to create my own world, might as well make it the way i want it right?

i'm still thinking of going for the "creative" gift for the Lady. every Lady needs a "creative" gift. whatever it may turn out to be.. lots and lots and lots of unmentionables to choose from!! aint that so fun!?!?

hihihi~

The Lady Says:

My apologies to the Witch and the Bitch for the lateness of my contribution. This week I've been feeling weird! I cannot decide whether it started bad or it started good. And I have a lot of things to say but I can't seem to channel it into something comprehensible, thus, the backlogs.

Now going back to that interesting day... I think the decision to have breakfast started way before my shift started. It started with Napoli's Oil and Garlic Seafood pasta! Ever since I tasted it, I seem to be always craving for it and since I cannot have it, I just end hungry and wanting to eat anything! And it's not doing my figure any favor. Huhu~ But I have to say, if I'm to lose my figure, losing it over breakfast with friends is the best way to do it!

Breakfast with friends are never ordinary! Especially if those friends are the Witch and the Bitch. Topics could range from the Witch's dream mansion with my own "wing", planning on playing SIMS to that "creative" gift for my birthday! Imagine us talking about the Witch's mansion's "wing" for me wherein the library willl be found, with me as the librarian, and clothes, shoes, and accesories as my books! Then we shift to playing SIMS on the laptop and creating our dream lives then to their creative gift for me. It's a whirlwind!

When it comes down to it, breakfast interludes are bad for my figure but good for stimulation of my brain neurons! That is, if it survives the shock from the topics and the sudden shifts of the topics. And oh... please boring gifts would be fine because I have heard your idea of creative gifts! :)

I am not my Virginity

The Lady says:

I am my flesh or am I? Take away a limb and do you take away a piece of me? Or did you just take away a distraction and challenged me to take a closer look of who I really am?

Hi, I'm the Lady. I lost my Virginity a long time ago. Does it make me less of a person that I lost it? Am I less intelligent? Am I less stronger because of that?

I never really thought much about it. But the Witch and I were at Bux waiting for someone, when we got to talking about why we decided we lost our virginity early on. So I thought to the time when I lost it. When I lost it, I agonized over it and the Whys of it. Then I realized, that it wasn't that I lost it but that it wasn't really good the First Time!!! (Haha) But then is it really good for anybody for the first time? Anyways, it took me days to realize that as Voltaire (French writer and philosopher) would put it, "It is one of the superstitions of the human mind to have imagined that virginity could be a virtue." And I'm not really into superstition. There were a lot of other issues I had to address that REALLY affected my life so I left that issue behind for someone else to ponder and moved on to important things.

I am educated, intelligent and unafraid! I earn my living instead of stealing it. All that I have on me, I worked hard to have the right to wear them. I look at a person and wait before judging. So why should I put myself in that box labeled "Virginity" and let that be my meter for my value? Why let others? I don't and I never will.

The point is, it's not our virginity that's important. It's losing it on our terms that is important. It's YOU. It's ME that's important. Don't let Virginity distract you from who you are. After all, we're bound to lose it someday. Do we also LOSE when that day comes?

The Witch says:

I've been itching to write this entry since last Saturday when the Lady and I finally touched the subject. I wanted her to go first though since it was her idea to write about it.

You see, I've been hearing a lot of negative things about girls sleeping around. And though I'm not guilty I feel that there are just too many preachy people around me. I'm not saying go lose your virginity as soon as you can or that you should go sleep with anyone who's got a dick attached to them. Fact is, you can never measure my value based on the number of men I've been with or whether I'm a virgin or not.

I recall talking to one Atenista friend last month. I told him about that time when out of the blue an old love (I do think I loved him back then hehe) came back and we ended up in bed. Not a proud moment but I don't find anything wrong with it as well. I'm single, he's single, we had a past. My friend then said something like, "You sleep with him, now you lose value. If I sleep with a girl, then I gain value." I looked at him wide -eyed and told him that if I never expected such a reaction from someone like him and if he indeed mean what he just said then he's a pig for ever thinking that.

I then told the Lady that I decided to lose my virginity early on after so much deliberation. Though I know it's moral/religious and social implications I decided I'd rather lose it than be weighed through the existence of that piece of flesh I am a woman of substance and a person all my own. My values as a person would never be measured by something as fragile as my hymen.

The Bitch Says:

Shoot, i've always believed that if you're going to protest this kind of thing to make sure you're as righteous as you claim. or else, you're nothing but a hypocrite. I have nothing against those who decided to go and free themselves of the bonds of virginity. and i definitely have nothing against those who are willing to wait till marriage. heck that's their choice. i dont think it makes anybody any less. Our decisions define us. whether it be wrong or right. hold on. right and wrong is determined by opinion. what may be right or wrong for one person may not necessarily be so for another. so how do we determine if it is? If you say so. As long as your choices for your life does not mean stepping on other,people, or hurting other people, go on ahead. Why should our being virgins or NOT being vifgins be a gauge of our "self". Freud always related sex as the root of a beings persona. everything has, one way or another, something to do with sex. maybe he has a point. maybe it does make us who we are. i'm definitely not ruling that out.

i agree with the Lady. we're educated people. Why would something like our virginity or the lack of it be something that would even minutely bother us? and why bother about it? in the long run its just a piece of flesh.. that you cant even see.. would ultimately be just a piece of skin. and nothing else.